Life is a matter of choices. There is no definite rule to say that you are supposed to act upon only a particular decision. We make choices in our lives. Some choices are clear and definite while many others can be very uncertain. When given such circumstances, how would you have reacted? Do you decide on it based on your first instinct? Or do you let it soak into you, taking some time off to weigh the pros and cons of it. What if there isn’t much time? What if you are required to make a decision right at that very instance? Uncertain of how things will turn out, how would you choose?
The choices in life we make today often determine how we’ll live tomorrow. I am not talking about tomorrow’s breakfast; either to have cereal or pancakes. What I really meant was how we are living our life today will shape the very core foundation of our future; as to how your present condition is based on your past. Still, no one is certain. Neither I nor you would have a single clue to where it’ll eventually bring us. So where should we based our choices from, if we aren’t sure of ourselves if we will ever get there?
A Higher Power, Perhaps?
There has got to be something you have to believe in; karma, instinct, intuition, hunch, universe, faith, God, whatever that may be, you have got to believe that there is a certain higher power to life; of which you are able to draw strength from. I have had the privilege to experience how living has been from both sides of the page. One that believes in Faith and God and the other that doesn’t.
Seeing With The Eyes
Our visions are very limited. There is no denial in that. We have eyes for sight and yet how many of us are truly ‘seeing’? What we are capable of looking at though our eyes are merely just things around us. We see cars, we see buildings, we see people, we see occasions, and if you happen to be at the right moment in time, you get to see certain incidences. But if you only look through your eyes, what becomes of what you see? Sure enough, that a particular thought would have accompanied your sight but what becomes of it?
I didn’t come from a very religious family and I certainly am not brought up to be. Throughout my 20 years of life, the only conviction that I had principally built upon was based on a belief heavily influenced by the Society’s expectation. And when I live life as to how society expects me to be, I saw only through my eyes.
Society deems that happiness is equivalent to having many things, like luxurious cars, big houses, branded accessories. It also emphasizes that looking good and being beautiful is to having curvy model-like features and physique. If we were to allow ourselves to be built upon these elements, are we not only seeing through our eyes?
Please do not get me wrong. I am not saying that being rich or having fascinating feature is a wrong side to the story. You are eligible as anyone else is to achieve every form of richness the world has to offer. What sets you apart from the rest whilst having all is putting purpose and meaning to it. Which brings us to the below read.
Seeing With The Heart
Seeing with the heart allows us to build faith thus leading us towards God’s plan for us. When I see through my heart, I opened myself up completely. I learn to stop judging and relish the positive things that life has to offer despite whatever circumstances; this includes the bad and the ugly. Because I know that each one of us was put onto this Earth for a purpose. And that purpose is always for the greater good. God has His plans for me and you and I lived each day with faith so that one day, when He reveals it all, I will be ready to accept it.
I have experienced despair because I was trying to live up to others and society’s expectation. At times I succeeded, and other times I was beaten down. With determination, there is nothing that you wouldn’t be able to achieve. Is just in my case, the more I succeeded in allowing myself to believe that in order for me to be happy; I have to be that or have that, the more I agonized. I allowed myself no room for error and each time I was unsuccessful, I felt like a failure. I was ashamed and I couldn’t bear to face humiliation from the society of what I am incapable of; when truth is, I was the only one inflicting all these damages onto myself. No one really cares about how badly I screwed up or of my mistakes. No one is perfect, and who was I trying to be?
Then came my salvation through reading. I was afraid of seeking help; therefore I sought relief from books. By reading stories of people who have had much worst, how they come about living life honestly and what it really meant to be so; I was able to slowly release myself off of my own captive. When I do, I haven’t had a single thought if my life would have been for the better or worst. All I knew was that I wanted to get away from where I was.
With faith, I stepped out; one foot at a time. And as I opened myself up to people, conditions, suggestions, my mistakes and most importantly my past, I was able to receive so much more. I have learnt that true happiness radiates from the heart. Of course, we see but it is how we feel it in our hearts, that we are able to finally experience life much more than wanting to have this or that. Our actions are to our thoughts and our thoughts are to what we feel and/or see. So if you see with your heart, your actions will therefore come from it.
The other thing that I have learnt, in spite of any of the bad circumstances I was in, I am able to liberate myself by providing for the others. I may have lived through an awful childhood but I can provide my experiences and lessons that I have learnt to inspire others. I may not have had anyone to talk to during those times, but I hope to be someone you can relate to if you are walking a similar path that I did.
How Would You Choose Now?
It takes time; really! It is not necessary that you change anything other than your mindset right now. Start by opening yourself up; to all the good and bad. Don’t just hope for the best; be prepared to deal with the ugly circumstances too. You will come to a point where you will learn, grow and be your best through these hard times. Bear in mind that your journey is meant to bring out the greater good in you. Have faith that whatever will come your way; it is meant to be there to teach you something. Draw strength from that faith and in God’s plan for you.